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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1995 on: November 17, 2017, 10:17:45 PM »
Today was my first full day in my new house.
One year ago today I had my last chemo treatment.
What a difference a year makes... :)
Yes, it took a LOT longer than I expected to feel 'normal' again, but I got there (basically, hehe  someone give me my sleep back!).

Don't ever let anyone say cancer=death sentence 8)
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1996 on: November 17, 2017, 11:04:21 PM »

Congrats!!!!

Moving is no small task (and then there's the whole cancer thing)
I'm glad you made it to the other side of the tunnel-- that's the kinda story that gives other people hope.  All the gifs i searched for the occasion felt cheap, so just take this virtual hug of congratulations w/o images :)

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1997 on: November 17, 2017, 11:19:57 PM »
Congratulations, Bea. On everything.

I took part in my second presentation to the ninth graders yesterday. And today started quite well, with me passing a test I half expected to fail at. It... didn't end as well, as I locked myself out of my apartment in the evening. But my old stepdad came by and drilled the lock open, and replaced it with one he'd had in his junk pile of odds and ends for more than twenty years. So I now have a new policy of keeping extra house keys in the glove department.
I'll notify your next of kin... that you sucked!

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1998 on: November 18, 2017, 04:55:35 AM »
Ms. Scarlet, I am so happy you've moved on, literally and figuratively. I'm sure in no time your place will become a new home.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1999 on: November 21, 2017, 04:33:16 AM »

Restraining Order hearing against my stalker tomorrow at 8am.... errrrrrrr.... wish me luck!

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2000 on: November 21, 2017, 07:10:58 AM »
ScarletBea, that is a huge and happy thing! I'm so glad you came through that terrifying time and are moving onwards to great things.

Best of luck with the restraining order, Bradley. Ick, sounds horrible.

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2001 on: November 21, 2017, 09:49:15 PM »
Good luck Bradley.

So apparently recipe failures can bring me into good spirits. I've been feel a bit down the past day or so, so I decided to make some vegan butterscotch pudding from scratch as butterscotch pudding was my favorite growing up. This was the first time I'd tried the recipe and I tasted it just a moment ago. I can't stop laughing over the fact I've ended up with coffee flavored pudding instead, despite no coffee added.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2002 on: November 21, 2017, 11:31:03 PM »
Good Luck, Bradley, hope this is finally effective.

NightWrite I'd actually prefer Coffee flavour to Butterscotch although they are both pretty yum. C 8) Congrats hope the coffee gave you a lift anyway.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2003 on: November 22, 2017, 03:55:07 PM »
I enjoyed it, despite the fact I couldn't get it to thicken up. I can't tell if it's because I used almond cashew milk with pea protein instead of just almond milk, or because I didn't cook it in the beginning long enough.

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2004 on: November 23, 2017, 10:08:49 AM »
I just got back from giving a lecture to a group of parents of autistic kids. It went over quite well, and one dude shook my hand and said I'd given him a much better insight into his eight year old son. The idea was also aired to arrange something more, involving me talking to autistic teenagers, AND for me to give a lecture to some town employees whose function I don't quite know how to translate.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2005 on: November 23, 2017, 12:36:26 PM »
I just got back from giving a lecture to a group of parents of autistic kids. It went over quite well, and one dude shook my hand and said I'd given him a much better insight into his eight year old son. The idea was also aired to arrange something more, involving me talking to autistic teenagers, AND for me to give a lecture to some town employees whose function I don't quite know how to translate.
This is fab, well done you!

(and I'm not sure what butterscotch is/tastes like...)
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2006 on: November 23, 2017, 02:51:53 PM »
I just got back from giving a lecture to a group of parents of autistic kids. It went over quite well, and one dude shook my hand and said I'd given him a much better insight into his eight year old son. The idea was also aired to arrange something more, involving me talking to autistic teenagers, AND for me to give a lecture to some town employees whose function I don't quite know how to translate.
This is fab, well done you!

(and I'm not sure what butterscotch is/tastes like...)
Indeed, congratulations on your lecture going over well.

Butterscotch is a hard candy whose primary ingredients are butter and sugar. I've heard people say it's similar to toffee but not cooked as hot if that helps. It seems its flavor is hard for me to describe as I keep wanting to say "butterscotch tastes like butterscotch" which doesn't help at all.

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2007 on: November 23, 2017, 06:33:14 PM »
I think that's accurate: sweet butter. Part of the hard candy's allure is its creamy texture as it melts in your mouth. It is similar to toffee that has a buttery component, but without the bitter aspects of chocolate or coffee.
Definitely worth looking into - butterscotch candy, pudding, etc. goes well with almost anything: coffee and chocolate flavors. It's a "gentle" flavor, without the edge that mint has, or the pungent aromas of fruity flavors. There is no bitter element and it is among the most soothing flavors there is, in my opinion, but not as jazzy as the others.
The closest thing to butterscotch has to be caramel, which is essentially cooked sugar with a  little bit of butter? Anyway, take that and add way more butter, and bam! Butterscotch!
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2008 on: November 26, 2017, 10:42:15 AM »

Restraining Order hearing against my stalker tomorrow at 8am.... errrrrrrr.... wish me luck!
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #2009 on: November 26, 2017, 11:48:45 AM »

Restraining Order hearing against my stalker tomorrow at 8am.... errrrrrrr.... wish me luck!
@Bradley Darewood, what happened in the end?

There was a lawyer there. Continued until Dec 15.  The opposing lawyer wants to meet with me and negotiate something called a non-CLETS.  If we don't agree on the non-CLETS we just have the restraining order trial on the 15th. I need to find a lawyer to help me figure out what that is.  So moooore stress.