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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1875 on: October 02, 2017, 10:20:50 PM »
Distract me, got home from badminton sister phone me saying doctor sent my mum to hospital for check up for DVT . Sister will phone again if I need to pick up stuff from my mums house if mum has to stay the night in hospital ,I'm just waiting doing nothing until phone call.shes not been looked at in hospital yet!

She's probably okay but I'm feeling upset.

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« Last Edit: October 02, 2017, 10:24:43 PM by Eclipse »
According to some,* heroic deaths are admirable things

* Generally those who don't have to do it.Politicians and writers spring to mind

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1876 on: October 02, 2017, 10:32:24 PM »
Update: one more test to carry out don't know how long that will last, but looks likely she's not stopping over, relief

Going to cry
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1877 on: October 02, 2017, 10:45:37 PM »
Update: one more test to carry out don't know how long that will last, but looks likely she's not stopping over, relief

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I'm glad there's cause for relief, @Eclipse.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1878 on: October 03, 2017, 12:58:24 AM »
@Eclipse I hope by now that the results have confirmed that your mother is not suffering from DVT  and she is safely home again. I am very sorry, it must have been terrifying and horrible for all of you.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1879 on: October 03, 2017, 01:18:03 AM »
Scary stuff, @Eclipse. I recall Mothers Day two (or three?) years ago. My mom had just gotten home from hernia surger. Her wife had to be someplace, so when I got there, mom was alone. And looked horrible. Took her right back to the hospital and she was there another two weeks!

Glad things seem to be okay. Here's hoping.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1880 on: October 03, 2017, 03:26:57 AM »
*big hugs* Eclipse, I hope things are better now x
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1881 on: October 03, 2017, 06:10:38 AM »
Everything okay , she's out of hospital I just was in shock from having a phone call and worrying.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1882 on: October 03, 2017, 08:12:34 AM »
Totally understandable!
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1883 on: October 04, 2017, 09:41:35 PM »
My GP today explained why I've been feeling so shattered at nights and take ages to wake up/get up properly:
I'm still recovering, my fatigue didn't simply disappear, the day has got 24 hours.

Obvious, right? But I never linked the 2 together.

I thought I was normal again, after all, during the day I'm ok, have most of my energy back, I'm working normally. It's been 10 months since the end of chemo. I used to not be able to even walk properly, now I'm ok, right?
The fact that I deflate once out of the door from work, the fact that I just keep yawning, the lack of energy to read as much as before, or watch tv series, didn't have a proper reason, for me.
Oh silly Bea!

I need to take more care of myself again...
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1884 on: October 05, 2017, 12:21:04 AM »
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1885 on: October 05, 2017, 08:41:06 AM »
Step 1: working from home today :D
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1886 on: October 07, 2017, 09:10:12 AM »

I've never lived alone in my life until this year, and sometimes I'm scared.
It's midnight, and I'm all alone, just a few days ago I got more threats from a random number, my stalker promising to find me no matter what it takes.  I have to wonder if anyone saw me go in the apartment.  I never walk or drive home in a straight line, I'm always checking to see if I was followed.  At home I check the locks every so often, and I'm even afraid to open the window.

I have had death threats before, doing human rights work. The short term stress isn't bad, but the long term stuff, working under the threat of death for months or a year, that can break you.  It gave me PTSD where I was paranoid all the time and sleeping with a knife under my pillow and constantly waking in the middle of the night to make sure the doors were still locked. It took years of therapy to get back to normal... it lasted a short time and here I am again checking the locks.  Of course this time I need to.  But it's not even *for* something!!!!  There's no political motive-- just picked by a psycho...

I just need to light a candle and calm myself...

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1887 on: October 07, 2017, 09:34:13 AM »
Just sending you *big hugs* and not saying anything this time xx
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1888 on: October 07, 2017, 11:08:41 AM »
Gives Bradley a big hug too
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1889 on: October 07, 2017, 11:48:33 AM »
Aweee thanks.  At least my insomnia caused me to both cook and finally add a signature to annoy you with every time I post!