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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #75 on: August 02, 2015, 05:20:13 PM »
I've had an emotional weekend went to Anglesey (Llanfairpwll - Llanfair PG in Anglesey, North Wales) my dad grow up went to school and leant to speak welsh here along with learning how to swim in the Dingle (woodlands)

http://www.anglesey.gov.uk/planning-and-waste/countryside/the-dingle-nature-reserve/

Yesterday my mum,sister and her husband along with my 8 month niece spread  my dads ashes in the dingle where he learnt to swim and fish along with his love of nature.

Said goodbye and cried a few times, feel a bit strange and tired now.

Before coming home today we visited http://plascadnantgardens.co.uk/2/en-GB/THE-HIDDEN-GARDENS I've never been there before it was lovely and I think my dad would have loved it.
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #76 on: August 02, 2015, 07:19:13 PM »
*hugs* Eclipse
That looks a most fitting resting place, back to nature and helping it grow. That's exactly what I'd like to happen to me.
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #77 on: August 03, 2015, 01:50:59 PM »
*hugs* Eclipse
That looks a most fitting resting place, back to nature and helping it grow. That's exactly what I'd like to happen to me.

Thank you for the hug, my niece has started to crawl today following my sister round the house.
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #78 on: August 03, 2015, 07:04:18 PM »
Hey, @Eclipse, many good thoughts your way

While on vacation the last two weeks, we joined my dad, step-brother and brothers in Maine to send my step-mom Elaine's ashes into the Atlantic.

Here's someone's wedding link that actually gives great pictures of where we gave her her send off.

http://www.emilyanddrewgetmarried.com/travel/

Somber stuff, but always better with family there and nature reminding us of where we fit in things.
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #79 on: August 06, 2015, 09:48:35 AM »
*hugs* to Jmack too. Lovely place.



It seems our condition got a boost with a famous SFF person talking about it. Hurrah for people not being afraid to share :)
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #80 on: August 15, 2015, 03:23:10 PM »
My mum lives in a  small cul de sac with a small field in front of her and the neighbours houses where people walk the dogs or play football or take little children to ride bikes unfortunately gypsy have just taken over the field with caravan and cars been driven all over it and now my mum scared to leave the house

The gypsy children/teenagers have got the whole field to play in and what do there do there sit immediately in front of my mum's house and other elderly neighbours. she's too scared to ask for them to play on the field in-case of reprisals

Just now there have got a mobility scooter and taking it in turns for rides

The Avenue has not had gypsy's before so it all a bit of a shook

 
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #81 on: August 16, 2015, 03:16:52 AM »
@Eclipse that sounds terrible and I understand how scared your mother and neighbours must feel. Can you approach a local Council office or even the police on her behalf and see if they are there illegally and get them moved on?
I thought in UK there were specified places for them to stay and they couldn't just turn up and squat.
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #82 on: August 16, 2015, 09:25:25 AM »
There been here for nine days now

The council have now paid privately for a Bailiff company who have served the travellers with a notice to quit the site by 8am Monday morning. Apparently not many private Bailiff's will take on Traveller accounts but they have found one willing  The park planning have been out already and assess the site and as soon as they have gone on Monday they are to install the bollards.

I think there is  specified places for them in other councils but there don't seem to have one in Sandwell council.
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #83 on: August 16, 2015, 09:54:20 AM »
I've been feeling strangely detached from everything lately...
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #84 on: August 16, 2015, 11:32:41 AM »
I don't have a gypsy story but since this is a depression-related thread I just thought I'd put something up. I've never dealt with suicidal depression but I still found this little article quite moving. It ends with an account of how those few comic book panels actually saved someone's life.

It's strange how fiction can move our spirits, isn't it?

http://comicsalliance.com/all-star-superman-world-suicide-prevention-day/
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #85 on: August 16, 2015, 10:16:46 PM »
I just finished A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara (not SF). As much as I admired it, and really did connect with it (it's quite easily a 5* novel) I find myself almost wishing I hadn't read it, as it's so totally harrowing. Now feeling a bit low!

Has anyone else read it or had a similar experience with a book?
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #86 on: August 16, 2015, 10:47:22 PM »
I just finished A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara (not SF). As much as I admired it, and really did connect with it (it's quite easily a 5* novel) I find myself almost wishing I hadn't read it, as it's so totally harrowing. Now feeling a bit low!

Has anyone else read it or had a similar experience with a book?

It's not at all the same type of book, but I had a hard time with Heart Shaped Box by Joe Hill. It may just be it revolved too much around a personal trigger for me and just became overwhelmingly dark, (I have a very hard time reading anything relating to suicide). It definitely made me pretty low after reading.
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #87 on: August 17, 2015, 05:55:31 AM »
I haven't read either of those books, and thankfully haven't had any suicidal thoughts throughout my episodes ...

And now I'll use tags to avoid others triggering, because I'm sorry to say, I didn't really want to think about this anymore and you kinda made me and now I'm crying again :-\
I know you didn't mean it, but please think twice before writing such things in this thread - use spoiler tags.

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(except in the very first one almost 20 years ago, that lasted about half a second and scared me enough to stop them in the future).
However I will admit to having been seriously tempted by self-harm during the blackest periods - and giving in twice, this time, saying to myself that if it didn't bleed it was ok and not really self-harm. I just wanted something easier felt and seen, visible to others, to deviate from the mental pain.
It took me the words of 2 close friends to promise to them not to do it again - I can easily break promises done to myself, but it's close to impossible to do it to others. Even though it was really hard, and the second time (smaller) happened after these promises :'(
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #88 on: August 17, 2015, 08:22:13 AM »
Sorry Bea, I didn't think to tag anything in that post, but I will refrain in future. I think it best to leave it here, but if you need to talk you know where the PM button is!  :)
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Re: Depression is a bitch... from a friend
« Reply #89 on: August 17, 2015, 10:33:43 AM »
I'm sorry too.
I keep telling myself not to go online or read potentially dangerous threads when I'm awake in the middle of the night, but I never follow my advice.
I think if I'd read it now, I wouldn't haven't reacted like I did.

(so glad I took the day off! Slept almost until 10, hurrah!)
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