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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1650 on: May 13, 2017, 10:32:47 PM »
Real life is so difficult ???

Yeah. Is it any wonder one prefers fantasy?  :)
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1651 on: May 14, 2017, 06:05:08 AM »
Friend of mine's sister is struggling with cancer. She's a mom, and it's mother's day, so perhaps $5 or whatever is clever will make a difference for her. Nice chance to pay it forward or pay it back, or perhaps both.

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1652 on: May 14, 2017, 11:40:41 AM »
Rosie dog isn't eating anything this a.m.  Internists can't see her for, like, two weeks to figure out why her body is "leaking" protein. Which causes shakes and other fun things.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1653 on: May 14, 2017, 02:17:33 PM »
Awww :(
Isn't there an animal hospital nearby, or something similar for urgencies?
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1654 on: May 14, 2017, 04:11:56 PM »
And look and behold she perked up.
Clearly not a well critter, but not an emergency right now.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1655 on: May 14, 2017, 04:26:44 PM »
Does she need cake? ;D
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1656 on: May 14, 2017, 08:32:53 PM »
Does she need cake? ;D

She says yes.  8)
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1657 on: May 14, 2017, 09:06:22 PM »
Here you go, Rosie ;D

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1658 on: May 14, 2017, 09:14:33 PM »
Different post because completely different subject.

Today I was watching the latest NCIS episode and I had to fast-forward on a couple of scenes. One of the key characters in this episode was dying of cancer, and then there was a big conversation with one of the recurrent characters about another person who'd died of cancer.

I used to be able to watch these things, all throughout this past year, but now it upsets me.
Am I more sensitive?
The therapist the other day said that was the lowest she'd seen me, since Aug/Sep when I first saw her.
The path doesn't always move forward, does it? :-\
I have to toughen up, I can't live my life avoiding cancer talk on tv - apart from not being possible, I don't want to live like that.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1659 on: May 14, 2017, 09:24:50 PM »
Different post because completely different subject.

Today I was watching the latest NCIS episode and I had to fast-forward on a couple of scenes. One of the key characters in this episode was dying of cancer, and then there was a big conversation with one of the recurrent characters about another person who'd died of cancer.

I used to be able to watch these things, all throughout this past year, but now it upsets me.
Am I more sensitive?
The therapist the other day said that was the lowest she'd seen me, since Aug/Sep when I first saw her.
The path doesn't always move forward, does it? :-\
I have to toughen up, I can't live my life avoiding cancer talk on tv - apart from not being possible, I don't want to live like that.

Heard most of this on the radio today while driving to meet my mom and Eva for brunch. This isn't any sort off"answer" to your post, B. But it does deal with struggling and surviving the Big C. I thought it was lovely. BTW, I'm aware some of the subject matter might be hard given some of your experience. I hope that's ok.

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1660 on: May 15, 2017, 12:10:22 AM »
I used to be able to watch these things, all throughout this past year, but now it upsets me.
Am I more sensitive?
The therapist the other day said that was the lowest she'd seen me, since Aug/Sep when I first saw her.
The path doesn't always move forward, does it? :-\
I have to toughen up, I can't live my life avoiding cancer talk on tv - apart from not being possible, I don't want to live like that.

I don't know anything about cancer or its psychological impacts. But I understand the bubble of invulnerability that we imagine protects us, and the way it feels when that bubble is swept away. Even beaten, things that shatter our sense of safety inherit a terrible weight and potency that far outlasts their original threat. And who we are, who we think we are,  what we think is important - all these things change for some of us.

My point, if I have one, is that neither the person looking at the thing, nor the thing itself remain the same. And so what might seem old territory is really new and frightening ground.

Our reactions can waffle between avoiding those things and being preoccupied with them, and everything in between. This is, in my experience, our internal compass still spinning, and when it comes to rest, it may no longer point in the same direction. Such is the price of survival. My two cents.
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1661 on: May 15, 2017, 05:42:38 PM »
So many things to ponder and assimilate...

But in the meantime I've reached my limit. My fatigue has put a big barrier in front of me. I'm leaving work completely exhausted and drained, so until I feel ok again, there will be no increase in hours or days. I won't go backwards (I hope), but no more. I just can't stand it. I'm softly crying with fatigue as I write this, and I've already rested for about 1.5 hours (well, reading after a bit, when I could focus - I finished the book, and that might be where the tears are coming from too)
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1662 on: May 15, 2017, 09:23:28 PM »
What a difference some hours make... I'll get by with a little help from my friends!

I'm still not 100%, but feeling a lot better after:
- chatted a bit with Jmack on skype (text only - I was never brave enough to do video with the people in my list)
- confirmed the dates with Saraband, to go visit him in July (and booked the B&B!)
- rested some more
- had icecream
 :D
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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1663 on: May 16, 2017, 01:16:52 PM »
Friends are what keep us going, which is surprisingly easy to forget.

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Re: Depression, Struggles and Light at the End of Every Tunnel
« Reply #1664 on: May 17, 2017, 08:55:01 AM »
well.. that and ice cream :)

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